i'm getting rather, no, infact, VERY sick of answering to people's question: "are you okay?" i mean, obviously i'll say 'im fine' right!? then what do you want me to say? tell you the truth and pour out all my life long woes to you? NO!? fuck no! people should stop asking me how am i yada yada because you should know that the answer you're gonna get "yea, im fine, just tired." standard okay!? STANDARD. i have no intention of altering my dialogue for any of you out there because i have been practising it for the past year or so and i'm rather professional at it. and also, i see no reason for me to do stuff i suck at, since im good in faking, let me fake on will you? just effing let me! and the person who should be smsing, being concerned IS NOT doing anything because i think we're just waiting for one another, seeing who will send the first sms. i'm so sorry, i think i've let NCC down, for they're always teaching me about initiative, but here am i, still waiting, and i don't think im gonna do anything about it. hello? i'm very gu dong one. on the pessimistic side, i think he likes someone else. HAHA. so much for telling him that i trust him? my ass. i just doubted him. what? you think people must sms you everyday meh? you know what's overshot? you know what's limited free sms? you know what's prepaid card? as much as he is freaking rich, judging from the things he wear & everything, there's limitations right!? no? yes? no? YES! eh c'mon lor, who do you think you are? you think you're some big ass hot stuff girl? nah, you're just a fat sloth - female version, who managed to lose like 10 over kg in the past year or so, but still fat. haha. pathetic pathetic. this just concludes that you're severely overweight, you should be bulimic now. aren't you even ashamed? OMFG, you just ate truffles!!!! omfg, puke everything out NOW. you're just so dumb, i can't stand you lynette lee. & so what he told you certain stuff? so what? jealous like mad? have you ever thought that he may have felt the same way cos you are so damn friendly and talk to everyone you know? & there's no need to mention that you do have guy friends!? & you also feel jealous when he talks to girls? yala yala yala, now trying to act what now? you're nothing. go slit wrists now now now now now.

actually, in short, school ruins everything. during the holidays, everything was perfect. school just had to come and interrupt. and destroy everything.

i have the intention to go to a doctor for the prescription of anti-depressant pills. i have a throbbing head now, and it fucking hurts la.

in conlcusion : the truth is, she misses him, although he was never really hers. yay. so corny right?! ITS JUST A QUOTE FROM SOME EMO STORY I READ.

& for every problem you have in life, you must have a solution, therefore, my solution to this problem is:

SHORT RUN = SLEEP
LONG RUN = CONTINUE FAKING, YOU'VE BEEN DOING A GOOD JOB AND MAKING A FOOL OUT OF YOURSELF.


im such a fucking smart person. i deserve to be somewhere more special. i create problems and will solve them myself. HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA